~UnDersTanDInG~

2006-10-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS! RELINK ME AT http://u-r-n0t-alone.blogspot.com/ OK!!!TYTYTY....

2006-09-01T22:59:00.000-07:00

emm..a few days no blog..now come n blog...looking at my past few post, emm..i scold so many badwords lol...budden i really not happy...haish...emm..party coming leh!!really hope that it will be a success!! EOY oso coming liao..me this few days studying lol..budden onli finsih studying phyis part of science...me now gonna REST!!YAY!!

2006-08-30T02:36:00.000-07:00

u know wad? u are a fcuking moron bas ok..why dun u piss off...y u at h0me? i dun need u here...i am praying ythat u not at home but why are you here? watchng movie from computer u oso scold...asshole...moronic bastard...wad's it got to do with u this kind of idiot if i watch movie? i hope that u can go out everyday n i come home late everyday and i dun needa see yur bloodly fcuking face...shout at me? U THINK I CARE? I DUN CARE WAD U SAID...U SIMPLY SUCK N I HATE U TO THE CORE...U FCUKING SHIT! STARE WAD STARE? PISS OFF..U WANT TO STARE U STARE? TO ME, U ARE SIMPLY THE WALL N I WILL JUST WALK PAST U...YOU SUCK!

2006-08-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

i wanna get something done..i dun care wadever shit others say i will still get it done..u dun understand me at all...u bloody shity dun understand...u say till u understand liddat budden the gal u feed for 14 years is no longer the 9 year old gal of yours...i am a teenager now and i wanna to have my own freedom in doing my thhings, using my bloody damn shit money...i told u how i felt in school, u say till SO nice...u clever, u so jian qiang, u go n be ME la! only know how to say...dunno how to do...wad's the point then? i dun give a damn to wad u say cause i had ENOUGH! i hate to be said..everyone hates to be said..and so do YOU!. i can tell..i seen u for 14 years and dun say that i dunno! now u gonna tell me dun care wad others say..just do it your way...OK! i do it my way and i wanna get the things i asked! CAN? shity! plus if there are SO many damn blo0dly shity ppl l0oking down on you, you will also properly choose to walk my path...u dun understand me..generation gaps maybe...u always said u dun give a damn to me...w\even when i tell u bout my personal things...i need HELP...HELP U BLOODY!yet u r not there even when i asked for it..when i tell someone else u are there to add bad remarks on me..wad the SHIT! shut your mouth for just one bloody hour...u oways think that i cannot change...oways! everyone can do something wrong in life and i need u to forgive! yet u dun...u dun give me a change to change...as even if i tried to help u, u wont remember and u will keep on saying that i am spoilt...maybe wad i did makes u think bout that but i can tell u im not..i am just a confused gal who needs love your all the bloody shity ppl...u dun understand me...wad the SHIT!

2006-08-28T04:51:00.000-07:00

emm...today get back the report card leh...wow..faled two subject leh...die la..must QIIONG!!!muhaha...hopefully next year can get into 3H lol..or else i die lol..haha..emm...now listening to music leh1!!nice nice...then..today in skul is boring..me abit pissed off today la...n this few days me feeling not too well oso..so didn't tok much...haha...tomolo i will be crasy again!!!trust me...haha...just now saw one youtube video..it's veri tootpid leh!!haha...lmao la...i laugh till siao..then i see another video...iluusion or wad one...got m0m0 poke out leh! i scared to death lol..haha...nvm..next time become me scare ppl...muHAHA...emm..now i so sian..lata gonna play maple laio...must faster level up leh...then become level 38 liao lol...muhaha...emm...techers day coming liao leh!!! so happy...gonna go back to primary skul leh! yay..long time no go there liao lol...yay...miss tthe teachers..budden i not going to buy ANY presents...who cares? me b'dae they oso no give...then national day onli give us PENS...wadd the...haha..pens i can buy myslef...me mama oso can buy for me one ok!!!haha..i so bad lorr...emm...pissed off leh!!i wanna die liao leh...PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fcuk la...haha...emm...this week no choir...so sad..budden next week got..gdgd...haha

2006-08-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

today in the morning i play computer lol..then went to ahma hoouse...haha...i played badminton...finllly know how to play liao..so damn happy...muhaha...dun lo0k down on me wow!! i not tat bad one wor!!!haha..ok ok la me...lol..then lata eat eat then sit sit then watch tv then go home..me sis n i went to jp to bread for tomolo...then go home lol...so damn sian...then at home bath then go n on computor then now blogging lol..haha...haish...tomolo skul agoan...so damn soan one lor...party coming soon!!! hope that it would be sucessful lloll...dun let effort go to waste...me didnt do lots of things actually..haha..budden i will contribute more one,haha...")

2006-08-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

wow...my cute little winnie the pool pictures..got a whole lot of them!! cute leh!!!
this chick is cute till!! wow...haha..me siao already///oways go n find pic nowadays..muhaha...cute cute...haha...
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emm..today morning go to choir...play captain ball n run a few rounds..today me first time in my life get to hold the ball in choir cause normally i dun get to hold on to it one..haha...then run two rounds around the skul then go n sing sin g sing...emm..then bout 1245 liddat go home..today no go out...actually got go out one budden i tired..go home sleep..haha...hiash..then after that go out with mummie, kor kor n jie jie...eat eat..mummie n kor kor go first...then i n jie jie go buy food for papa..then walk walk buy chocolate eat...i nv buy cause i ate two liao..haha...then go n see VCDs...budden no buy..no money..haha..then go n take rice then go home...then at home i on computer lorr...nth to do lorr...haish..me sister needa use the computer lol...hao men wor!!!

2006-08-25T07:01:00.000-07:00

today is such a long day!!! morning got the lesson..after sul got the choir...aiyo..today at choir run so many damn rounds,,,tired u know!! then still needa stay in a guys pushs up postiion...wow liao..is tired one ok!!! and then it's not called train, it's toture...UNDERSTABND!!UR MAMA GOT TELL U WAD IS TORTURE MAH????tooptpid la...haish.tired liao..tats all...

2006-08-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

haish..today boring..nth to do lol...comics all read finish lliao..wahh..sad sad...love stories comics rawks!!!lurve it...makes me cry lol..haha...emm...i dun wanna tok bout skul todae...i also dun wanna tok about anything at home todae..cause it's damn bored..haha...emm..nth to post about lorh

2006-08-23T07:10:00.000-07:00

today morning got s n d..emm...ok larh the s n d...short short one..gdgd...hahathen horr when back to class...stuady stuady..today sh crazy..she do wad magic make the table fly..actually is she use her leg to live the table..damn lame lorr..then after slul me n mei yean go to find jesline(did i spell correct?)...budden she not there...so we went down to eat lorr..then went to find her..turn out tat she mistaken the floor, she waiting at third floor, we waiting at second floor...hahaa...lame lame..then we walk wak then went to choir...ttoday is quite short lol..then horr me got a new mummy..jing jing mummie...haaahaaa...gggg..today elsa n me bully geraldine..muhaha...then after that i go home with geradine n mei yean lorr...haish...boring day.

2006-08-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

today is so sian..nth to do one...haish..morning till afternoon study lol..then after skul go to the gekpo eat with gladys n cherrie..wow..cherrie first time eat with us leh..haha..today horr, me keep sabo cherrie lol..haha,,sabo till fun fun leh..lol...the nat maths lesson i go take sweet drinks in to class...cover with pe t...budden melissa tan horr ask me wad i drinking..i take mei yean's water bottle then let her see..muhaha..she dunno leh..she toot lol..haha...emm..duno wad to write la..haish..
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2006-08-19T02:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday
yesterday is a super bad day for me..been scolded by two teachers..frist is ms gay..then is the tootpid angus teo...duno how to spell her name la..ha..ms gay morning ask me n gladys to stand up to tuck in t shirt..we tuck in liao lor!! then in the hall we the onli one standing leh..malu malu lorr...tootpid la she..then horr at recess the tootpid agnus(duno how to spell) teo catch me gladys sh n cherrie..she say my tshirt and theirs not tuck in..we tuck lorr..then she let glasys go first..then ask us wad class..i say 22222hhh..then we like not haapy liddat..cause i say till veri wad...budden i speak liddat one mah..wad she wan..u isit wan i ask , madam, we from to 2h madam..liddat isit? crasy arh? siao zha bo leh..then she write our name n let us go..BUDDEEN when we walk past her she shout at us gain.."THREE OF U COME HERE!" ma de..wad u wan..u say we tuck out gain..we where got? cock eye leh u..then she lecture us then ask us stand there till she happy with our posture and face appearences..wad u tink? ms singapore universe isit? standing posture n apperances..crasy la u..then we bu suan there stand n duun care her..then she say me n sh calm down liiao..onli cherrie nv..ma de..i dun have calm down lorr..cock la ma de..then i act act i not angry liao..cherrie like angry liddat..then she go ask sh to take three late going to class paper..she take n write "tuck out tshirt n attidute problem"..wow liew leh..then she let us go..we give paper to our teacher..then say in a veri happy voice.."madam! u see we dun have tuck out leh!!can see the wadever band leh!!!n our attidute is gd one!!" our teacher nv scold us..haha...

today
today morning go choir..our instructor late..haha..he 10 o'clock then come..aiyoyo..then after choir me, yh, geraldine, cecilia and elise go to jp eat..then cecilia n elise bully me..wow..i ke lian lol..then after that go home lorr..then at home sleep..then me mama go out..then i wake up on computer..then she at home liao...then now gonna go out eat liao..eating is a veri happy thing for me..muhahahaah..hahaha...

2006-08-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

long time never update liao..now come and update..emm..nowadays veri super tired lol..and then i nowadays mood also not veri good..cause i sick and i suddenly figure out something that hurts me lol..haish..let not tok bout that//haish..yesterday i dunno wad happen to me leh..but i went home and then dream that i am a goldfish leh..haha..i dun really remember the dream budden i remember i was a g0ldfish in my dreams..haha..then dunno why all my frens ask me about my dream..lol..i am so lame..today also quite boring..lessons then after skul is choir..today got back geography paper..pass by a few marks onli..nvm..still pass mah..haha..budden i will work extremely hard from now onward...haha..emm..duno wad to say liao..thats all bah.

2006-08-12T22:30:00.000-07:00

haish..nth to blog for today lorh..study at home for maths...haish

2006-08-11T21:08:00.000-07:00

today actually can go out one lor...but then i sick leh...sore throat havent ok, then fever come leh...wow..i wanna die liao...today actually go see comics one! and today i also should give xin hui the comics one..budden i cannot go...sorry wor xh...wo bu shi gu yi de...srysrysry...wanna die liao...sob...someone help me!!!CRY!! me no energy liao lol...wanna sleep budden cannot sleep leh...haish...

2006-08-11T03:59:00.000-07:00

today is quite a short day...at skul i read comics till siao liao...haha..dun tok bout skul...dun tok bout choir...lets tok about something else...today i not feeling extremely well...i did have fun at skul...but as i walking back from skul to home, i am thinking...thinking of something that i really felt so sad...haish...i am extremely lost right now and i really hope that i can just stay at home whole day...i wanna be alone to tink...i needa some quiet...haish...

2006-08-08T01:01:00.000-07:00

wow, i am tired..just woke up onli..i am quite happy today cause we won the folk dancing competition!!!YAY!! happy happy! haha..emm..today throat quite pain lor...stll eat kfc and chocolate bread..ha..i veri qiang horr...muhaha...now thraot veri pain leh..sian sian..
today morning went to skul in costume..attracting lots of weird stare..cause our costume is like, err...dunno how to describe...ha..then horr meet fren liao go to skul..then sit there and then do nth..me frens doing up their scarf..then went to the parade lor...the national parade...aiyo..veri short one...but our principle tok tok tok till long long..so i stone stone stone long long..today dun really tok much as me scared no voice...sad..then aftre parade me, sh, xh and gladys went down to help yanni n cherrie...after that went back to the hall and gladys n my sit was ccupied oready..we ask them move back but they die die also dun want...nvm...then sit there stone lorr...see sec one competition dance then is sec three mass dance...then sec two competition dance...we dance 'coocoo walls'..ms gay also got dance and then everyone cheer for her...muhaha..
then see sec threes competition dance..i like the wad 'angelina' the song...nice nice...haha..then is sec two mass dance...then is the best dancers competition...sec two our class amira won the competition for the female sec two...then rest i dun remember...haish...then horr the 2G won the best costume...then our class won the 'coocoo walls' competition!! then we highest mark and went for the winners paade...walk one round around the hall...then the ys step onto my shoes!! malu me leh...so i malu go back...after this is finale dance...then sing song...then cheer...tats al...then went to gekpo eat with xh and gladys...then i go buy things then go home...once again ppl stare at me cause of my costume..haish.

2006-08-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

today reach home at bout 6 plus something..cause got folk dancing rehearsal...so long leh!! morning got lesson still needa stay back so lata//lets talk bout the rehearsal bah...today at rehearsal i veri tired and abit pissed off...at first must wait for the sec 1 to dance finish..then must wait for the sec 3 mass dance...then must wait for the sec 2 then my class 2h...wait quite long...then dance liao go back...ya..then at first finale dance cause the sec 4 can go early..then tootpid ms gay ask me to stand back at original position...emmm..i rebelliance...haha...i purposely so she will get pissed off..heehee...then went back lor...then got one tootpid teacher confidcate my comb and my fren' mirror!! just because i used it..at tat time can use lor!! unfair!! hate her man..then when she left a while i quickly say "nvm, rake larh! she ugly need coomb and mirror mah...NVM" hhaahaa..i say so she can hear..i at first quite like her...but now suddenly dun like...and hor, she act wad act, also not disicipline teacher, no one ask her to caught pupils lor..she is the onli one doing tat...it's irriatin!! she isit wanna kenna promotion? plz la..used yur brain!! you like tat cannot get one! plz!!!!! dun let students hate you1! i want my comb and mirror back!!!

2006-08-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

haish...today is a quite boring day for me...haish haish///haha...me morning blog now still blog...lol...emm...me now doing nothing leh...reading blogs rite now...haish...sian sian...morning mummy bought me things to eat...wow...nice nice...haha...emm...now sian sian...nth to do again...emm...haish...blog for fun onli...haha...;p

2006-08-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

.today so early come and blog liao...haha...yesterday i so happy...cause mi lu bin won leh!! cute ones always win! happy happy...they sing all the 4 songs so nice...haha...wow...i so happy...!!! yesterday listen to one song called mr Q...nice nice...haha...now my blog de song also is Mr Q...i lame horr, haha..."hey you Mr Q!!! ai ni shuai cool blah blah blah blah..." haha///i lame...dunno whether when will they have a cd leh...i will surely buy...haha...emm...dunno wad to post leh...haha...haish.

2006-08-05T02:56:00.000-07:00

today is a short day for me...cause most of the time i am sleeping...me morning wake up then brush teeth sleep for awhile again then woke up...then eat...then nth to do sit there watch television...then lata go to my room slp again..."__"...haha...then horr, woke up at bout 5.45 liddat...wow...so tired leh now...dunno why oways tired one...lol...lata gonna go out to eat...gdgd...hungary leh now...haha...emm...now on computer as lata needa study leh...monday got geography common test...emm...must be veri hard one...haha...must pasS!!! lol...ok larh...tats all lor...")

2006-08-04T08:34:00.000-07:00

today's a very long day...reach home at 10 something leh! wow...late lol...but i still come to blog...haha...haish...today morning go skul study study study...so sian...then after skul acutally wanna go to jp eat...but then horr dunno why go gekpo...haha...then eat carrot cake...then went back to WWSS...then line up then go and take bus to CHIJMES...dunno if spell correctly anot...then horr i sit with geraldine nuer...then she give me a sweet so sour...haha...sobo sabo...next then i bring shilli favour...muhaha...jkjk...lol...then reach liao lor...sing sing sing...haha...then so gd leh the mon wadever choir...they sing SO nice...jealous...why i not guy? emm...forget it...then wait wait them sing finish...then our turn...anyway lata go rest and eat and change lor...the dinner okok la...not tat bad as i expected...then change...mine costume same as quite lot of ppl...haha...me is green colour...then we prepare to start everything...then we go into the 'hall' again...then sit there wait for the guys skul to start...we are the guest choir...haha...then they start liao...the starting so cool...mr goh(instructor of both skul) bring the choir in and he sing solo...so nice! then we wait then our turn to sing...aiyo...then sing okok la we...then combinee song then we left then can go liao...ahhaha...then we and the rest go change into uniform and choir t...then follow ms fong to the MRT station...in the mrt tokt o ms fong abit...then we all so sian...then ying hui so funny, bang her heads on the wall...pain...lucky she ojk...phew...then cecilia also not so well...then reach liao then cecilia drove me, ying hui, geraldine and bell home...reach home faster watch ghost wisper...wow...nice...then bath then now blog lor...haha...tats all

2006-08-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

today is a very long day lol...morning got home economic...cook roti jala or wadever and curry...curry not nice one...then the roti wadever also salty salty one...yuck...then horr go to class then lesson...then test...ok la...hopefully will pass...haha...then is geography...it's boring...then recess...sh and gladys and me went to toliet to try costume see can wear anot...mine can wear la...ha...but gladys one too big cause she actually take small one but no more then have to take large...haha...then help her pin lorr...then change back...me and gladys go down buy things eat...eat seaweed chocken...wow...nice nice! then go to class lorr..then is got the english...today mr lee crasy liao...haha...he duunno wad say the fighting thingy and wadsoever...haha...lmao...lol...
then got math...today learn graph...but dunno for some stupid reason i dun understand leh...lmao...haha...then got science...today science boring...cause today is presentation by a group...then they toking to themself making us sleepy...haha...even mr chan also say so...lol...then they speak louder...though it makes no difference...LMAO.,..then is lit...wow lit today exciting leh! got debates...mei yean is one of the debators...she horr speck till so fast and cannot hear wad she saying...we stone there...then laugh...ha...she so funny...lol...then is after skul...but then cannot go home...got the fulldress folk dancing rehearsal...we wear till ok la...then guys also ok la...haha...then we are sweating lor...then the rehearsal starts...we see sec one dances then our turn...haha...so malu...then is mass dance then final dance then YAY!!! finish...haha...then can go home liao...actually wanna change back to uniform...but waste time..then horr! my scarf de pin lost!!! so cannot wear scarf leh...MALU!!! but still liddat rush home lor...malu malu malu...sob...tats all lol..haha

2006-08-02T06:02:00.000-07:00

come and blog liao...today morning got S n D... then ok la...not boring lor...cause can understand the show...then is lesson...then is recess....then sh crasy keep saying "fcuking" leh...haha...then horr lesson gain...then Pe...then play ball...throw here throw there...then choir...sing here sing there...run here run there...haha...that go home...thats all...today write short short...cause 9 o'clock laio leh!!! got show i wanna watch!!! ok tats all...haha...

2006-08-01T03:35:00.000-07:00

haish...today is boring...emm...morning got rev-up...then our teacher angry and shouted at us...haha...then the suituation quite scary,..lets not alk about it ba...ha
then is english lesosn...the teacher ask us write news paper report on the rev-up lesson...haha....then he went down dunno meet who...anywae i faster do finish so can tok to friends...then is science...went to lap for lesson...mr chan do experiment...not we do...llol...then recess...eat chicken rice again loo...then change to uniform then buy oreo again...haha...then is chinese...haha...chinese always veri fun one...cause of the wang fang teacher...then today we talk behoind lor...then she give us work to do...then after that is geography...mr clark today give us game...it's abit lame la...then as cherrie and gladys they change place then sit beside me, so we in one group lor...haha///then on the end we are the second highest on the game...haha...qiang...lol...then is maths...today get back test paper lei...i fail lor...haha...but nvm, at least still can get 4 marks apoint 20...haha...at least got marks...not zer0...dunno how to do all then mrs tan find marks to give me...haha...then is music...today carry on learning the piano...so hard...dunno how to play///anyhow press the keyboard making rubbish noise...haha...then is fter skul...ms gay wanna us teach her the dances for cultural expression///haha...then she inspect us dance also..we anyhow dance then she say not acceptable...but she more worst leh! dun even know how to dance then say us...bleah...haha...then at 3 gladys, xh and me went to gekpo eat..then go home lol...

2006-07-31T03:34:00.000-07:00

today was actually quite boring...got el common test...editing i dunno how to do...so mini ma ni mini more, then see which one i point then anyhow write word on it...so i dun expect to pass it lor...haha...then got PE...we go to the hall wait for ms lau but she didnt come...should at least tell us that she wont be here ma!!!let us wait so long...not fun lor!! then we went back to class she downstair INSPECTING us see we got talk anot...
then got chinese...today pay money then the wang fang give us back test peaper...i just pass...haha...then she count wrong the marks...she should give me 3 more marks lei!!! chicken...pui la she...haha...
then is recess...went down to eat lor...eat chicken rice...dunno for wad reason i veri hungry...haahaa...then cherrie help me buy green tea...then they all cope my green tea leh! so ke lian me...
math lesson...haha...the mrs tan caught me drinking sweet drinks then i give innocent look...she say i second time like tat liao...tootpid la...i like to drink leh...wad can she do? haha...
then is folk dancing...so tootpid...change place then gladys and jeffery suddenly is infront...ha...lmao...then is english lor...the mr lee crasy liao...say about teeth de thingy...say he go to doctor then wad dig the vein outa the tooth...YUCKS!!! wanna vomit liao..then is after skul..so wad lei...xh n gladys all run so fast to bus stop...nv wait for me...i finding them leh! nvm..they take bus i nv wad...haish...thats all lol...

2006-07-29T19:52:00.000-07:00

haish...my lef now still pain...cause friday i done 190 squarts(did i spell it correctly?) . wanna cry liao...then yesterday so tired...yesterday is NDP preview...then because of sec 2 NYAA, i must go there to tell ppl about not to throw rubbish...and tell them that they have a plastic bag in their bag and that then can take part in a lucky draw if they place a sticker found in the bag onto it...haha...but i never say anything to them....so extra leh....so after half an hour then i faster go out of the stadium...then go back and found my frens eating KFC...strooms burger with no strooms and a chicken...haha...still got a mush potato...i go and take also then sit down to eat lor...haish...so sian...then got nothing to do...our senior say must report back at 7pm so me, sh, cherrie and gladys go and walk walk...we saw those army ppl arranging goodie bags so we went to see...then we 'persuded' to give us some things like fan or torchlight...then they give us lorr so we veri fan..then found out our fren got a full bag leih!! so not fair so we ran to 'persude' them to give us again...budden suddenly got national anthem they suddenly stone so we stone also lorr...then horr after that we ask them agai.n...they give in they give us the bags...haha...budden actually the bag is ppl lost one...inside things some dun have liao...budden i got tw o fan and two hats...so i give galdys one hat cause she dun have...then horr, we sit together///then sze hwee suddenly went crasy...talk about the 'hao xiong di' leh!!! then we so scared liao she still contiune...then we scared her liao...then lata she no say liao lor...then our senior says change to another place sit then change lorr...see fireworls abit...nice nice...then ppl starting to go liao...cause the preview over...then sh, me, gladys and cherrie crasy one...we say bye bye to all the ppl...some nv wave back but some have..then those 2g malay ppl also follow us lol...-_-ll...then we stop lorr...haha...then we went around lor...went to toliet then so smelly one...then lata we go back to stadium pick rubbish...so dity leh...then after that wait to get dismiss lorr...then we walk to the bus area and wait for bus to get to jp...then our teachers scold us cause we standing in the middle of the road...ha..then we board the bus lorr...i close my eyes wanna sleep buden cannot leh...cause too noisy laio the bus...then about half an hour i reach jp.l..gladys father drove me home lor...then i call me mother ask her fetch me from my house cause i dun dare go up the lift on my own..12 o'clock liao leh and it's seven month leh...then she fetch me up and i bath and faster sleep...haha...about 10 o'clock then woke up...

haish...ttaats all...")...

2006-07-28T05:04:00.000-07:00

today quite boring la...go to school then saw cherrie they all...siit down with them...then found out that someone complain about my blouse is "horribly untidy"...haha...i know who that person is...wont mention...argh...ok la...next time i tuck in lor...")...then today sit there in the hall then go back class...got art...then do photoshop./..tootpid...i go to notepad and type rubbish then madam ong see ask me sit on the floor...so cold lei...then i go and open the one thing cause i gekpo then she say me...say lata open the door insects jump on me...haha...then lata she ask me sit on chair again...haha...then lata got science...science today got three groups presenting...about wad safety using electricity and wad pure iron and unpure wadever one...haha...i dun understand...nvm..i go read text book myself...then is recess...today recess so sian...go down eat oreo...then go up...then got math lesson...something mrs tan said makes me think that i fail veri badly for my mathhs est...die leh...nvm...i will work hard for the nexrt test...then lata is chinese...got test also.,..die...i dunno how to do the first to third page...the rest ok...so i surely fail...die die die...wad to do? haish...then after skul lor...actually me, ying hui and cecilia wanna go to IMM go look for folk dancing de thingy...but nv go in the end...then horr, go to jp there eat lorr...ahaha...yh crasy de, go and tap a guy shoulder, haha...then the guy although is same skul, but she dunno her!!! so shock lei...haha...bully him lor...so bad...anyway in jp we siao siao one...then go and find the scarf and found in chamelon...is ppink and 3.90 per piece...then i tink ms gay dunn wan...cause is expensive...but for her information, this scarf is long and we can cut is at the side and tied as a belt...tootpid la...she dun wan nvm...haha...anyway today get the folk dancing costume liao...haha...i at home try it...ok la...quite suit the coco walls...can la...emm...")...thats all for today lor...nth interesting...")

2006-07-27T04:55:00.000-07:00

haish...today is veri boring plus extremely tired...haish...in the morning wait for fren at the 4D shop then go to school...in morning see the sec three thailand community service trip video...i never wear specs so i cant see a thing...haha...then got lesson...we got home economics first...got test today lol...then so hard...i surely fail...haha...then got geography...geo is quite boring la...luckily half an hour opnli...then recess...me and gladys wanna buy seaweed chicken one but dun have...lineup for so long but dun have...so sad...so we go buy oreo...then see cherrie, yanni, xin hui, cherrie and sze hwee...then we join them llol...then after recess we all go back to class...got english...then mr lee dunno for wad reason angry...i tink is because last time we anyhow go for recess...haha...then got science i think...i think so onli...got presentation...haha...luckily notour group...then got math a i tink...math got test...and i dunno how to do all the question cause i forget to study..haish...die liao...surely fail one...then got lit...we go to MRL there and then go through the one paper...then after that is after school...but lata got the cultural expression...needa pratice folk dancing...so boring leh...firstly needa see the sec 3 dance then go home...then left us...we see the sec 1 dance finish then our turn...the sec 1 one ok ba...haha...at least better than last year when i am sec 1...last year is veri tootpid one...haha...then sec 2 dance...dunno for wad reasons my class and 2I de dance is different frmo the rest of the sec two lh...so extra lol...then after that mass dance...then the ms chen say our hands hold no good one us stand there for two minutes holding hands leh...so crasy...haha...then lata go back sit she lecture us for abit then we can go home...haish...so sian...

2006-07-26T02:33:00.000-07:00

haish...today is veri boring...today morning wad for gladys and sze hwee...then go skul...then as per normal, we sing national anthem and then go to class...change to costume cause lata got performances for shakespear...haha...our class veri boring one...haha...then when all perform finish we when for recess...then sze hwee take our clothes up to class cause she dun wana eat...then we when to eat chicken rice...then go to hall sit with sze hwee...we watch the sec 1 perform...frankly speaking i dun understand them...but then lata ms ka-ra-c go and scold them then can hear them liao lor...todae ms kara-c siao siao one...scold till so long...she say we not students, then ask wad if we wanted to be treated like animals...hhaa...crasy...then she go and ask sec 1D to perform again...dunno why lei...i can hear at the first time dunno why she cant...maybe there's something wrong with her ear...she today crasy...tell the sec one to write reflection...then tell us say in hall and then she lecture us...she say us for abot half an hour then end of skul liao...then i go choir...at least with cecilia and ying hui go n eat then go n sit down...so sian...then we tok to li qi they all...after that we when into the AVA room sing...haha...today sec 3 nv come cause they last few days got adventure camp then tired so go home and rest...lata then we learn new song lol...then dismiss at 3.30...so early horr!! i so happie cause i wanna go home at tat time...really tired cause the tootpid ms cara-c go and lecture us like sing kara-o-k like tat...wont get bored one...haish...hope next time wont be scolded by her...she showoff, say wad she teach at victoria skul and RI and wadsoever before...so? haha...she is lame...haha...got to end here...

WHOSE NAME IS WESTWOOD??

ANS num 1: i dunno...cause my name is not westwood bak xiao tian...haha...

ANS num 2: ours...my name is westwood...my father sirname is secondary...so i am westwood secondary...LOL....just kidding...

2006-07-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

come and blog again...haish...today is very boring...got two english lessons then got abit of science then recess...after that got enrichment...the instructor wear the clothes is so ye xin...the clothes is bois where one...then the clothes is so big...haha...yucks...then today go to enrichment course the teacher so impatient...and horr, she so dity...like sweat till her clothes all wet...haha...so we dont dare to get near her. if only she worn something presentable then ok oready, cause she not very ugly...haish...today then got abit break during enrichment...so me n gladys go down to eat first...then cherrie they all come down...we saw the basketballs guys lol...dunno whether today they will win ma..hope will lol...")... then is go back to enrichment...we then need to compose a song/dance and sing it out to the class...then i go and chance group with ruo wen so i partner with sze hwee and yanni...haha...then edwin, wei xiong they all crasy...tell us dunno say wad thing and they sing merry christmas...it's lame and no one laugh...nvm..we laugh ourself...haha...then after that i tink is over liao the enrichment...so jing han they all lead us go to market there see the folk dancing costume...must pick size...me pick size liao then go lor...w8 for gladys, xin hui and sky then take bus together...then i get sown early and walk home...reach home liao watch televison and then bath lorr...and here i am rite now...just finish bathing...haha...today horr, i wittness a fight between my fren and the other sec 2 girls...in the public lei...crasy...they don't want face but i want so i quickly walk away...haha...then tmr more sian...sec twos must perform a shakespears show...it's boring lei...not fun at all...the language i half dun understand...they speak in a veri weird...for example, "thee" actually means you if i am not wrong...haha...i dun like shakespear language...haish...now dunno wad to write liao...wad to do? now can only stone in front of my computer liao...haish...

2006-07-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

haish...after thinking whilie lying on my bad, thinking of the things i said to my friend yesterday...i reflect on myself...i tell ppl things tht actually i have problems with...memories that have not gone...feelings that i still have...i am a problem attidute gal... i seek for help when i need...even when i dun need...but actually i hate it when i seek for help...cause i want people to know i can do it myself, i dun need them...but then, i am afriad of falling...instead, i tried to help my fren...maybe she dun need it...but actually i did it cause i wanna help myself...she is my character mirror...she's just like me...stubborn, dun listen to advise...she says she is a puppet, who i wanna ask, who's not a puppet...i am a puppet, cause i dun want to show my saddness again...i am a puppet, cause i lie, cause i cried in night, cause i am weak yet i act that i am not...i am a puppet, who tell everyone i need help but actually that's the worst thing i hate...i am a puppet, cause sometimes i pretend to like some things but i dun...i am a puppet, cause i hide my love n feelings,(thats wad i am gonna do now anyway)...i no longer wanna show out my feelings...i no longer want to do that...i never tell anyone...but i tell my fren that and reflect and i wanna write it in my diary and this is a place that i am gonna remind myself...i wont show attidute, as i know ppl nv own me anything, so wad's the point of darkening their day? i be my outside self thats all...act crasy, act happy, act that my feelings are gone...maybe my friend's way like hiding feelings is right...i am not trying to be a copycat...all i want is to make pain go away...thats all...so wad if my brain cant cope? so wad? so wad if no one's there to help me? so? i use to be alone last year, but i get over it...i can do it and and i truly will...maybe when the day comes that i really cant cope it, then i will forget everything...i wont find a mirror anymore...a mirror to reflect...i am a IGWHH...independent girl who hates help...i wont hate those who help me...but i hate those who will l00k down on me...

**feelings now**
- mixed feelings
-troubled feelings...
- dun really know anymore...haish...

2006-07-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

sometimes i felt as though i am trying to be happy...while actually, i am not...in my heart, it's full of misery and saddness...but i refuse to show it out, as i wanna to be happy///burying myself in a pool of worries...my friend said that i am someone that need ppl to take care, understand...but actually, i am not...i might need ppl to advise me, but actually i dun like it...same, i never show my true character, or else i will be moody everyday...scolding people everywhere i see...not happy then i just shoot...i trying to control myself...no one in these world shows their true character actually...maybe some will, but most dun...haish...i dunno why i msut feel sad...but somethings really bothering me...i hate it...i wanna be my happy self again...but i cannt...i dunno why...in my heart is a truly diferent self...a self that i wanna keep and not show as ppl will say me...haish...no one is happy...so when not happy, dun show it out...or act, which is so tootpid thing to do...haish...

2006-07-22T02:06:00.000-07:00

today carnival...so boring actually. me and my friend reach school then go to our class stall call mugay there put bag...lata go walk walk...i never play any game...cause dun want, too expensive and too many people...then lata buy ballon...let my friend take as i gonna go for choir...but then they let it flow away...but then nv go for choir...then help out at stall...half an hour lata the teacher say needa then CCA performing at the carnival to line up so i go lor...but then sing liao then i go help again...then horr my friend at there...then me sit there reast...actually wanna buy ice cream, but noo one accompany me, all wanna help up...so i sit there...then lata join in and help lor...haix...today dunno why temper not veri good...these few weeks temper not good, easily irritated...haix...so sry if i accident say something too rush...ok! forgive me..."(
haix...now very tired...dunno why saturday carnivval...so tired...haix...now only left the folk dancing performance too "look forward" to...and the NDP there puck rubbish to "LOOK FORWARD" to...haha...haix...

2006-07-20T02:34:00.000-07:00

haix...today in skul veri sian...then veri boring. today first lesson home economics we cook sauages n egg...haha...veri discusting..but i still eat...quite nice...:)...haix...then got test on geography...die liao, surely fail...hahagaga...nvm...i fail then no need to waste teacher the ink to write so many digit marks on the test paper...lol...then recess...recess boring...then lisson again...el then math then lit then after skul...go home no go outside eat...then at home listen to music..then sian lol...haha...me mama kept asking me to go close the com...i act no hear...")/ haha...veri sian if no use...n0w veri hungry///haix///

two weeks lata is folk dancin compertition lei...then costume havent choose...hope is not too classical one...no nice de...haix...then hope our class nv ma lu our self...i tink i will malu myself cause i really dunno the sec 2 mass dance...see ppl move wad then i move...or else stone there...haha//sob///"(///

lata go n eat outside i tink...mama no co0k...yay...good good...needa some fresh air...haix...tats aall lol...

2006-07-19T03:30:00.000-07:00

today feel veri sad and irritated...then go home on computer and saw something tat make me even more sad...nvm...i will che3r up...now listen to sad song will cry...i dun understand alot of things...i dun...i really dun...i want to understand, but i cant...i want to know lots of things, but i can't...i am so irritated...

2006-07-17T04:30:00.000-07:00

finally blog...haha...haix...i like my blog de song...it's call feng by jay chou...so nice...let me thing of something...haix...so sad...nvm...CHEER UP!!! haix...this few day so tired...sunday also needa go to skul...they tell us about the nyaa thingy...we gonna go the s'pore stadium on national day tell those ppl not to little...they say till so nice...say be a eco youth campion...like real...is go there pick rubbish...no needa say till so nice...haha...i dunno wad to wryte..i sian now...haix...

2006-07-15T00:15:00.000-07:00

today went to see doctor...haha...the doctor keep laughing...i tink he veri scared...so keep smiling n laughing..me sister losing her voice also laugh...we bing water bottle also laugh..so bo liao...haha//anyway eat medicene better liao...but veri tired...just wake up from sleepin...now listen to song n chatting...lata maybe play maple...i wanna be lvl 40:) haha...then can show offf liao...anyway i have nothing to do now...haix

2006-07-14T04:26:00.000-07:00

haix...today so sad for me...i fail to do something...haix...i also sad cause i am having fever right now. my throat also pain lei...i eat too many rubbish liao la i think...nvm...i dun care about being sick...all i care for is something else...haix...wad to do? wad to do?
'i am close to tears'...haix...feeling veri sad...not just sad...this feeling cannot describe one...haix...who will understand me? i am all alone...who will be there for me? haix...close to tears...i felt lonely...i am unwelcome in some places...haix hiax...why? why? and why i so wad one...i ask me fren remind me something...but when it comes to the time to do it, i back out...damn useless lol me...'CLOSE TO TEARS"

2006-07-13T02:39:00.000-07:00

haix...today sian...first lesson sian till last lesson...last lesson sian till the in-touch discussion end...today first lesson is home economics...today no cook...sian..then got the geography...today geo so sian...but the sir veri funny..haha...then recess...then is english i think...the mr lee crasy liao...play with mei yean pencil box...say that it's a rocket...he's so lame..then got math...then got lit...todday needa present lol...we pai sei our self cause we dunno how to present..haha...then lata after skul...eat in the skul...we make a whole lot of noise...vrei pai sei///i try to keep quiet lor...lata pai sei myself..haahaa///aiyo...dun wan to say lei...me hand pain//ok tats all

2006-07-11T03:11:00.000-07:00

I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING
Aerosmith

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far way dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Coz I'd miss u baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cuz even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Coz I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Coz even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you
Right here with you just like this
I just wanna hold you close
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Yeah
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep '
Coz I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Coz even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Coz I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Coz even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

2006-07-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

feeling extremely down today...haix...wanna cry leh. i just cannot understand somethings that are going on around me...i dun know wad is happening!!! why somethings happen in this way? i dun understand..i need an answer...a trueful answer...i know i will nv get an answer , i dun mind liao. i hate to live in the dark. i hate to be fooled...i hate ppl to play things n tricks on me...hate ppl who think tat i am someone who can be fooled easily...hate all those ppl who think tat they can lie to me...why must they do that? haix haix...actually not really hate...i wont hate anyone. but just felt tat i dun like it tats all...haix...things just didnt happen the way i thought would happen...i dunno why lei...haix...why like tat lei...let tok about skul today...today do road run in the morning...run till sweat till like crasy. then after tat go to class got english...then got sciencce...today do experiment...not fun one...then recess...recess go n buy drinks even though the light close liao...then is chinese...now cherrie n me veri guai...nv tok much...as last time i 'ding' her till like siao...lata she till my ex-chinese teacher i die...haha...then is geography ba i think...then is math i tink...all lesson so bloody sian...then is music...but our teacher nv come to class so we at class so siian do nothing...then is after skul...actually today got enrichment...but in the end dun have liao...then we go home lol...tootpid la, tell us stay back 4 nothing...haahaa.then at home i go do nth...i really veri sian lei...sian till i can go n kill myself liao...jkjk...everyday go skul, study study study then maybe CCA then go home do homework then on computer then go sleep...wad an INTERESTING life...haix...

2006-07-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

today is a quite borin day for me ba...cause nothin exciting happen today.so sad...haix...morning till night boring...nth exciting...haix haix...today change blog skin, veri white de blogskin...haha...dunno why i now tokin crap lei...just felt like it...haix...actually i am sad now...for no particular reasons ba...i think...but then i feel so damn sad lei...nvm nvm...my life is damn boring...it's boring...wads the point o living? everyday doin the same boring things...wads the point? it's boring...boring...even sitting down here blogging is also boring. maple is also gettin borin liao...so wad can i do? if i nv go online, it would be even more borin lei...wad can i do? i wanna go swimmin lei...but cannot lei...so sad lei...so sad sad sad sad sad sad sad...i am sad sad sad sad sad...wad can i do now? i am just tryin to waste my time rite now...tryin to waste it so i won't need to use it...or it would be boring borin boring booring boring boring boring boring boring///ok...let me count how many boring i have type...about 15 ba...not enough lei...i am boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring///AIYO!!!I AM BORED!!!SOMEONE TOK TO ME CAN???

2006-07-07T22:28:00.000-07:00

haix...come to post again...i am veri bored right now. nothing to do, and i also dunno wad i can play lei. now listening to music, call somewhere only we know...sort of make me remember of things lol this song. veri nice to me...haha...

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?[break]
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

2006-07-04T03:13:00.000-07:00

haix...i am veri tired now...i really hope that i can go swimmin now...i want to drown myself...i want to kill myself...jkjk...hahahaha...haix...i now dunno why feelin so down...maybe is too tired le ba...nvm...today in school morning play push "BALL"...then go to class got english lesson...mr lee is veri lame...he like got nothing to say like that...dunno why...haha...then lata got sc and got lot lot lesson...so damn sian...almost sleep lei...mr chan though i sick...then he know i tired...then tell whole class dun sleep...haix...lata recess...we got scolded by ms goh...tootpid...then we eat lor...then again back to lesson...it's boring...lata then we go to geo, math n music...then after skul...go home...tats all...go home liao striangle away sleep...then wake up bath...then now using computer lor...wad a boring day...i want to go arcade lei...tootpid...haix...

2006-07-03T04:12:00.001-07:00

haix, today go out with frens...go to arcade...play basketball in the arcade de...haix...today sad lei...actually want to swim one...it's a way 4 me to release saddness n stressness...but today never go...cause me fren dun want to accompany me...haix...i veri stress now...hiax...

2006-07-03T04:12:00.000-07:00

2006-07-02T02:31:00.000-07:00

today i tell my friend about something...i dun regret...nor do i feel better...cause after 1 year of being hurt as though there's a knife cutting through yur heart, i won't heal tat well anymore...after half year, i still have scar...an unremovable scar...usually i am not tat kind of person tat remember wad ppl did to me...either good or bad...but now...i will remember...cause i felt discusted by u all...if u know i am tokin bout u, then i tink u should go n ask someone i usually tell me xin shi tto...go n ask...she will know...i dun hate u all...not so much anywae, but i simply discusted by how u treat me...

...my own life, my own personality...

2006-06-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

haix...so boring now...really got nothing for me to do at all...today in school take photo for the art project...then horr,crasy one, must be 'natural' lei...haha...take alot la me,,,now finally finish art project liao lor...now i really dunno wad to blog lei actually...but horr, if never blog i got nothing to do lei...wad to do?haix...computer is getting boring lei...haix...wad to do...in msn also boring, as i dun dare to tok to someone, haix!!!so i simply stare at the computer screen when i turn it on lor...turn it on for the seek of it...XIAH!!!i am damn sian...just now i go down stair eat...then saw the world cup...tootpid la...i dun have the scv...so sad...i primary 4 watch till addicted liao...actually i dun want to watch one liao...but listen to fren say i wan to waatch till like crasy...now i tink channel 5 will have...the semi final one...my fren tell me one...haix...aiya, nothing to say la...

2006-06-28T06:09:00.000-07:00

haix...today come and blog...today is quite boring...as today study, then go to choir, then go home le...haix...today my baby cousin come to my home...me mummy is his nanny...he sick lei...just come home from hospital after 2 days...so ke lian...he ALMOsT died...phew, he ok liao...haix...**ppl dun tink bout the toughtness bout older ppl**i tink no one know wad i tokin bout la. it's something tat makes me extremely angry...eh, excuse me, me mother already veri tired already, she not tat young, then still she nv sleep for 1 day cause she go look after the baby in hospital...then tomolo look after the baby...she not veri young ok!!CRASY ARH!! she oready veri tired liao some ppl still let her take care...got brain one anot?need me to find one 4 u? or u need some liang xin? i can help you dig yur heart till u find some...my baby cousin will be ill is because SOMEBOBY nv take GO0D care of him...dun want to listen to my mother advise la, k la, naw ill la...u tink ill liao veri comfortable huh....excuse mi, u got hear before ppl say 'ooo, i LOvE to be ill!! the feeling is gd man!! see doctor also veri nice,see doctor also veri cheap, wow, the doctor so handsome, hope i severly ill more times so can see him longer!!' got PPL LIKE TAT SAY MER? HOPE THIS PARTICULAR PERSON WAKE UP LA!! U EDUCATED PERSON LEI...BRAIN READ N STUDY TILL CRASY LIAO ISIT? DUNNO HOW TO USE ISIT?NEED ME TEACH U? TA MA DE! although u bigger than me, my relative, must respect you, i still cant, cause u dun deserve it...

2006-06-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

haix...so long never post...i am now listen to the mrbrown show, very funny!!! haha...anyway, today is a boring day. me ownself at home so borin, then turn on computer...haix...anyway, tomolo is wednesday, got choir, haix...must late late go home...i want to go to sop lei...cause i dunno y suddenly cannot sing low low...haix...dunno why...nvm...hope tomolo faster end...i dun lyk wednesday, friday n saturday and sunday...this days suck to me totally...i got nothing to say liao la...

2006-06-12T19:24:00.000-07:00

last few days never blog, as me eyes not feeling too well, abit pain...yesterday go out do project... need to read 'the pearls'. not nice to read. we all give up reading in the end and went to play basket ball. haha...quite fun lei basketball. me de basketball put at home so long...months never play liao, finally ccan play again...after playing then go home liao. then today all time at home...help me mama to take care my baby cousin...so cute 1_1...just nw i go to the kitchen to look at me mama cook, wanna learn how to cook lor...or else when mama not free i got nothing to eat lei...haix...lata go and play maple, then go and rest rest awhile and then go and do dunno wad. now i listening to music lol...'where you go? i miss you so...' this song is called 'where you go' by fort minor...veri nice nice...haix...thats all i have to say lor...

2006-06-08T23:09:00.000-07:00

come and blog liao. today all day at home too. abit bored. go online is getting boring, but in my life, there is nothing else interesting already.i have no choice but to go online. i dunno how to spend my time. all i can do beside online is to go out with my friendds onli. at first when i am young, i love to play computer, as it's new and interesting to me... but now, no. i go msn everytime i play computer, but then everytime go also not many poeple online. so sad...all i can do is listen to songs.haix. actually, i hope that i can have someone being with be all day long ,but i know it's impossible. my bro nsis everyday go out. i m alone.it's very unfair, they got things to do and they are much bigger than me. wad they are saying i dun understand. place they are going i can't go. things they can do i dunno how to do. it's boring, my life. i wonder whether my frens are like me too, but all of them are usually the biggest or the second biggest in the family. they can tok to their younger siblings. but i can't...it's so unfair. sometimes they discuss things, i dun even understand...haix...it's just too torturing

2006-06-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

today still all day at home. getting bored by it. anyway, i think this saturday got go out...yay!
haix. how i hope it's night right now, then i can go to msn...now me actually is go and use the com when my sister in the toliet...so sian now...listening to all the songs by TATU...i really dun know what i should write...my mind is blank...full of nothing...haix

2006-06-07T04:04:00.000-07:00

haix...come and bl0g liao...today all day at home...see blank walls...this morning i on computer, then play. it's getting boring...msn is the most interesting thing...but today a bit disappointed...dunno lei why? this blog msg no one will understand one...as i speaking my heart out...wad i am always wait for is something that i know won't come throught...but i still keep waiting and hoping for it...no one knows, but being hurt is always a bad feeling...i am being hurt so many times...but i decide to give something one more chance, however to someone whom i know wont accept this chance...this person have his/her somewhere else. even i try hard to get it, i still won't be able to. i\i try to give up, really i do, but i can't...it's too hard...really far too hard...i would be really very happy if this person tells me something...but it's hard...i am not that kind of person that dares to open my mouth and talk to someone. i really never go so deep into this thing before...really never...i don't regret..i don't...however, waiting is abit painful...as i am hoping for something to come...

2006-06-06T00:50:00.000-07:00

come and blog today...i thought me ma ma won't la me us computer, as me father finally become fasion, he use the computer, ha. today a bit boring, as nothing to do at all. whole day at home. determind to read finish the harrypotter book 6 by today, as that is the thickest book i can find. cannot find book 5 or else i would read that to keep my mind of off things. actually i want to play maple now, but i am getting bored at killiing pigs and mushroom all day long, will get sick of it. yesterday me went further into perion(a place in maple). i found a dinosaur!! but me cannot fight it. once i touch it i die! my 5% gone just like that. no wonder dinosaur now no longer around, or people all died. i talking rubbish, i now really very bored. i on the computer also dunno what to do. staring at the computer screen. what should i type? aiyo...bored bored bored...

2006-06-04T20:41:00.000-07:00

wow...today nv go out...yay...yesterday me go cut hair lei...ok la me now de hair style...just a bit weird lo...sze hwee go perm hair lei...also ok la, her hair...emm, sze hwee perm hair long long lei...so i wait for her with yanni and xin hui...sit till butt pain...anyway i reborn de time more worst last time...haha...emm...then after tat we went to jp lo...yanni go find her frens...then xin hui and i n sze hwee go KFC...sze hwee treat us lo...yay...then we went to shop shop lo...we went to this fasion lo...the clothes okok onli...sze hwee one us to find clothes for her...then we find lol...found a quite nice one la...then let sh see...she say ok la...so i buy for her as late bbirthday present...ha...now onli gladys old sze hwee present...phhew...then lata we went to toliet la...1 go tidy me hair lo...then lata we went to third floor seesee...go to milkboy that sop then to pink-q...i bought a earring...xinhui say not nice...actually wanna share with me sis...but in the end never...dunno why...haha...then after this sh go home...me and xh also go home lol...i get down at gekpo lo...as my family eating there...i go find them n sit down watch them eat...as i eaat kfc laio ma...lmao...then after eating we go walk walk then go home lol...then at home sit there watch tv then me sis watch DVD...the movie called"two weeks notices"...nice nice lol...me dunno wad to write laio la...sian...lata nothing to do lei...tootpid...whole day at home...will die one lei...aiyo...

2006-06-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

today still veri tired lei...leg still a little bit pain...yesterday veri tired so nv describe the camp lo...well, today i got time, so let me describe it...
when we reach there horr, we do a stupid roll call, then we go to the hall(girls onli)...the gals sleep at the hall, the the boys at located classroom...then we have games...there were lots of games...then got three game we play we water...quite fun...the senior keep pouring the water at us..then before the game, the stupid ms gay go and pur water on my head cause i never pin up me hair...she sux la...that time we not playing any games lei...that time we just sitting down lei!! i can sue her one lo...stupid head la she...keep catching ppl, isit jealous that we got nice nice hair she dun have...:)...then lata horr, we went to the AVA room...sit till butt pain lei...after that go for lunch...the stupid senior say must say a food cheer before eating...sia0...ppl hungry lei...still do food cheer...anyway the food no nice one...its cold lor...and must finish eating everything...everyone don't want to eat the chicken wing...then we tell our teacher that the chicken wing is a bit raw, as got blood inside...it's discusting...the teacher then say don't eat the chicken...haha...after that we play game la...i can't really remember...at night we have night walk...we take bus 199 or 172...get down after one stop./..then walk to NTU...long lei...leag pain..somemore syill need to carry a 1.5 water bottle with water felt to the brim lei...heavy lorr...
we walk till halfway then ,s gay say we take the bus go back la...as i tink she cannot take it laio...haha...anyway when we reach skul, we went for a bath lo...so many ppl...then we must bath quick quick...then lata we report to the seniors...must tie hair lei, even before sleep...then lata the seniors dismiss us, we untie our hair lol...then we sleep lol...me sleep a little bit onli...then at 5.45 me and xin hui and sze hui when to the ttoliet...we are the first to wake up lei...so amazing...then in the morning, we eat bread onli lei...then we so to the dunno wad place(dunno how to spell) there and walk for two hours...10km walk lei...tired lor...leg pain like crazy lor...then we wait for bus and get back to skul...then at the hall got prize giving...our goup won a awaed for be early everytime...haha...then lata dismiss...sze hwee and i go and eat lor...then lata i go home and sleep...so tired now...but i cannot sleep lei...dunnno why...sometiing bothering me la...i want an answer to something but i never get any lei...why??why huh? i now actually abit sad lei...haix...

2006-06-02T06:39:00.000-07:00

well...NYAA camp just finish onli...me leg veri pain...haha...must crawl to the computor lei...haix...nowadays veri sian...not veri exiciting lei...not fun one...anywae...now is holiday!! yay!!!can play till crazy...emm...i realli dunno wad to say lei...actually me now veri sad la...so i dunno wad to say...**am i suppose to give up,or to hold on?** i know ppl won't jknow wad i am toking.,...nvm...heartbroken la...aiyo...nothing ot say la......shall post again when i have rubbish to say...

2006-05-17T03:28:00.000-07:00

survey...emm...me daughter geraldine sa bo me to do lei...

INSTRUCTIONS
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her lover.
3. Tag 8 persons to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time , there is no need to do this again.
5. The most important rule : have fun doing it

the 8 points huh...let me think
-nice
-caring
-friendly
-love me also
-be there for me
-not a flit lol
-wont lie to me
-help me in things...

gender...
me not lesbian...so is GUyS la...fei hua

the 8 super lucky victims
-gladys
-sze hwee
-cai yun
-ying shao
-shahidah
-xuehua
-samanthea
-si ying

2006-04-10T05:44:00.000-07:00

todae go to skul...wow...when wanna go in to skul liao saw principle..haha...lucky nv get caught...me uniform tuck out...haha...too short liao...sob*0*...then hor,go int o skul...then got wad poerty wadever one...so sian...the stupid uncle go say wad*we want ice kadang*...sort liao la him...heehee...haix...after tat go back to class...sian lo...at class first lesson is chinese...the idiotic chinese teacher think me and my frens are bad student...siao laio la her...just because we talk loudly in class, i l\keep combing my hair, she scold us...like tat if i have flu she will say tat i have bird flu isit...sort laio lo...haha...go metal hospital la...heehee...after chinese is art...sian...teacher talk i never listen...shit liao lo...she say bout exam one...i fail for sure...s0b**haix...lata is literature...we read about a love story...nice nice but a bit idiot la...then is recress...recress so short...so do nothing...lata is english...do the english textbook the thingy...then lata is math...math go test le...i tink i fail liao la...the last two question dunno how to do le...omg...so sad...then after tat is history...history see wad video la...boutt broke vases one...siao lol...haha...then is after skul...me go eat with frens at KFC...then go home...haix...my simple life...actually if everyday i write about skul, wont i be writing bout the same content as this? in me de life, everythin gis lyk a cycle...its boring...i want something new...something more interesting...not lyk me this one de life...sian sian...

**my heart is fiinally feeling so down...really down...haix...

2006-04-08T23:08:00.000-07:00

so sian...got nothing to do...lata still needa go and study history...aiyo...sian le...me now hope can g oout play basketball...or go out walk walk le...but exam coming...haix...must work hard...todae sian sian dao!!!haix...me now listening to songs onli...haix...sian...

2006-03-27T04:59:00.000-08:00

hiax...me otday n0rt in gd temper...from the star day of skul...me temper already not gd...me frens know why...told them i n art lesson///chio ppl always get gd thingys///or else...ppl lyk me...get junks from ppl...o u think they will feel gd?NO//ppl wont shut their mouth...me have got enough liao...really enough...n today got awards day pratise...suddenly me becomee SC...me though i quit liao...cause paper dun have me de name...nv do alll the duties also can become SC...so funny le...me veri the angry...i know ppl will tink i veri the happy cause i become SC laio...but fine...i f they wanna think tat way...no one would ever believe me...why...tat why i say...chio ppl get better treatment than ugly ppl...i felt sad...me lost freedom, times spend with me de five bestfren...gladys,cherrie,sze hwee and xin hui...all time lost...me hate it...but wad can i do...hax...

2006-03-16T17:31:00.000-08:00

hiax...sian...tomolo got choir...haix...me finally go rebond hair...hair finally not tat thick laio lol...phew...haha...yesterday whole day listen to perfect 10 while dooing hw...now horr...got few songs i lyk le...this song in me blog is call petrified lol...NICE COOL lol...sian now...me wanna download maple patch....but dunno why cannot le...shit lol...sian...haix...

2006-03-12T07:03:00.000-08:00

haix...few days nv post...so sian...yesterday me go rebond my hair...emm...okok larhs...sian dao...aiyo...hair okok suit me onli...haha...cause me dunno how to style it larhx...need help from me de fren who give me this hair...lol...haha...anywae me quitelyk it...cause when the hair styler help me comp till quite nice..haix...today veri de sian...nothing ot do..go to grandma house lol...sian dao!!me cousin come back from thailand...buy gifts for us...haha...then we celebrate me bady cousin de birthday...actually is next week one...but we celebrate today lol..haix...sian le...me now half asleep liao...but me dun wan to sleep...aiy0...hiax...SIAN ARHXXX...

lets tok about a perfect life...jus inmagine u live by the sea...and grass surronding yur house...u n uyr belove no need to work...jus need to plant vegetable...u live in a woollen house...nothing is aroind yur house...it is jus u n him...wont tat be great?when u n him r free...u will go to the sea n feel the wind...i guess this is wad every gals ones...at least,i tink...to me this is a perfect life i always one...but i know,it would not come true at all...haix...

2006-03-07T01:35:00.000-08:00

todae sian...lets tok about yesterday...yesterday got a stupid P3 gal horr...bu yao lian...though she stronger than me n my frens...arshole...she though she wad sia...she wanna fight...she hit me frens...i walk n take her hand...haha...i could have crash her hand...so small want to fight liao...aiyo...she still say todae go challenage her basketball...she tink she wad?me use ball throw her she die laio lol...crasy gal...ars...freak man...hate this kind of ppl...tink they veri qiang...but actually they are the lousiers...haha...now me s0 sian...i wanna faster saturday le...i wanna holidae...veri sian de le...aiy0...skul suxs sia...me de life is veri boring le...c0me to tink of it...every time go to skul...after skul go eat...then go h0me....do hw...then play c0m...then eat then sleep...tats all le...me really stupid bout this kind of life le...me wan s0methin else...s0mething nice , gd n different le...y everyday do same things...dun life be worthless if lyk tat?veri sian liao le...when young...we everyday go skul...come home...when adult...we go work...come home...sleep...life keeps repeating same things...even though life keeps repeating teh same things horr...me sometimes find myself lost...throughly lost...me dunno if wad i m d0ing is rite...me dunno if me g0ing the rite way...aiyo...teenagers life...

2006-03-03T21:27:00.000-08:00

sian...todae say at h0me...nothing to do le...aiyo...but can sleep till late late...haix...me horr now veri sian...i wan go shoppping le...but no money...aiyo...maybe me can go rob le...emm...when i\an auntie peeing in a toliet...maybe me go bang on the toliet wall then take her money...LAME le me...too sian...goin mad liao le...aiyo...sian sian...now listening to tatu song...nice nice...hee...sian...

2006-03-03T05:37:00.000-08:00

todae is the m0st sian dae i ever had le...really n0thing to do...jus go skul...sit down listen eacher tok rubbish...then got in-touch...after tat go back class...listen to rubbish...idiot sia...me subbenly remember tat i needa bring $5 for a stupid book.aiyo...me onli gort $1.50 le...i go borrow money...phew..then at math the last lesson...me fren crazy subbenly horny le...siao one...where gort ppl lyk tat s0 fast horny...tok bout discusting things....siao...lol...aiyo...h\after tat is after skul liao...we go eat then must go choir liao...choir sian sia...sit there do n0thing...no frens at me de section,alto...me no frens to tok to so veri quiet sia...haha...n0t lyk me le...jkjk...aiyo...jus so sian lioa lol...sian of this kind of borring life...

2006-03-01T04:45:00.000-08:00

l0ng time no wryte...been playing maple...haix...todae freck sia...n0w me then kn0w horr having a lighter in yur bag or touching a lighter means tat we have been smoking...asshole...me skul siao liao...their mother nv teach them isit...me de DM go n say me fren smoke...they saw her bag outside the cca rm....me principle go open...then saw lighter...though she smoke....SIAO HUH!
lyk tat u use gule to paste things means me smelling gule huh...crazy la...worst till..me fren say she nv smoke...tat moron say he dun believe...say must yur fren smoke...shestill say no...the he ask her who her bestfren is...she say me n another fren...then maybe he though i also smoke huh...siao!!!INSULTING..i go sue u then u know...他妈的！！！see me 14 yrs old easy to bully huh...asshole...i burn yur tat one hope u no father day then u know!!!say ppl say yurself lol...always say we must have intergity...dun touck\h ppl thingy withoput permission...then u anyhow open ppl bag....lyk tat call intergity jhuh...lyk tat u in toliet pee me go open yur toliet do0r la...hate ppl who say things yet nv do...or say empty words....Fcuk sia

2006-01-01T20:36:00.000-08:00

wow...2oo6 liao wor...finally...4 more months lata i gonna be 14 liao wor...YES!!!emm...tomol0 skul reopen liao...really hope to see those new sec one onces...then i can bully them le...muhaha...last time is ppl bully me...now i bully ppl...YAY!!!haha///today horr last day holida...so sad sia...so i going to play till i go mad...but i havent do finish me de hw le...H0w???left onli newspaper cutting...emm...sian sia...go skul hope horr the hw n0t too many la...go i will go mad one...emm...

2005-12-30T19:20:00.000-08:00

todae sian/..lata going to lot1 lo...needa give a stupid photo la...ma fan sia...dunno y lol...i needa do me hw one le...still wan me to og...idiot la...sian lol...gonna die liao la...siansian sian sian sian sian///haix...gdi onli left elglieh a bit n chinese abit hw left...phew...can finish by todae...but horr....must do till midnight...omg..!!!

2005-12-29T19:23:00.000-08:00

hiax...long time no blog liao wor...sian sia...lata go out...FINALLY>>>>skul starting liao...finally...but actually i veri happy one...but no not happy liao...skul strt means see those crazy teachers n cannot sleep late late liao...sux sia...ARGH...nothing to sae

2005-11-25T02:36:00.000-08:00

~~ YESTERDAY ~~

veri the happy wor...yesterday i go out wif one of me de best frewn...cai yun wor...then we ogo bugis sh0p like siao...we wan buy clothes one but all not suit us n some too sexyy or else too $$$...then we go to this fasion...all nice nice clothes but we wanto see got more nice one in bugis juntion but dun have so we buy no clothes wor...so sad wor...BUT...nvm la...happy ok liao...actually wan to watch harry p0tter one...but sian le...i watch oready still watch 4 wad???

~~ TODAE ~~

todae sian wor...n0thin t0 do lol...sit at home watch television then play computer then watch FING NEMO wor...sian...sit at home shake leg wor...veri sian...aiya...so sian...also dunno wad to write wor///

2005-11-23T05:44:00.000-08:00

todae veri happy,...mui go out if frens wor...go cause way point shop...take neo print n then go to the arcade(so call la) play////we try to win the hp le...but horr。。。idoit la...cann0t get...waste so many $$...nvm...i give up liao anywae,...then sh veri gd...treat us ice cream n water...she bring S0 many $$ wor,...heehee...too bad...i cann0t steal her $$...no la...hee...we today act lyk want go watch harry potter movie le...actually we really one...but gladyss cannn0t le...n also no money wor...so sad...nvm la...but veri happy...hope can go out next time gain...

2005-11-03T22:15:00.000-08:00

haix...boring day todae...go 4 a stupid maths remedail then go out walk walk at jp lol,,,sian till~~!haix...then at 12 or wad go home lol...then go homme i go play nail polish theni go use computer lol...so boring...tomolo still got choir...more sian...i hope 20 nov faster come...i gonna watch harrypotter wif mui de bf le...caiyun..heehee...hope she won 4get...heeheeee..veri gd!!!muack!!♀...i hope is 4 hours movie le...but ppl asy is normal 2 half hours...kick yur a*s man...really de hao i go kick the waron wadever brothers a*s lol...insulting le...if onli half ours...haix...danial,emma and rupert rox man!!!prettyy pretty handsome handsome....heeheeheeheeheeheeheeheeeheeheeheeheeheeheeeheeheehreeheeeheeheeeheeeheeeheeeheeeheeeheeeheeehee
heeeheeheeeheeeheeeheeheeeheeheehehee
heeehheeeeeheeeeheeeeheeeeeheeeehheeeehheeeeheeheeeheeeeheeeeheeeeehheee
wow,....hand pain liao...haix....harrypotter 1234567 book rox....!!!

2005-11-02T22:49:00.000-08:00

haix...l0ng l0ng l0ng tim3 nv blog liao...buzy sia...haix...g0t result s liao...n0rt veri the happi wif it la...i drop my position la...from 13 to 30...haix...nvm...promise will work hard next year...gort lot lot sad new le...gort two of me gd gd fren not same class liao...won mention names la...BUT!!!i will stand by yurside n support u all one...!!promise ok...i will not 4get u all de...then horr,i also veri happi nowadays le...cause i go out wif my fren...eileen,cherrie ,gladys n me lol...veri fun...we play ball ball le...heehee...glad as i FINALLY know how to play le...but horr...me de skills veri lan la...sobsob...BUT!!!dun l00k down on me...i will soon master mui de skills de...muihaha,,,heehee...haix...sian le...i veri the bored...i tink n tink horr...maybe it isint tat gd to be grown up teenagers le...cause life wont be MORE MORE MORE bored le...haix...games n fun we had will slowly go away...n u will be more n moer pack up wif studys le...n slowly...all yur last time frens will loss in touch one,...miss all of my pri sch frens...but i duno if they miss me an0t....haven seen them..hope they are all rite...
teenage life is bored le...me mum alwys say...teenagers will easily get influences by bad thing one...n turn up be bad bad ppl...haix...i wanna say this...sorry mum...tat i gave u so much trouble...i have been bAd bad le to me mum...haix..

i will turn over a new leaf one...believe in me ok...

**Dreams World**
(full of imagination and dreams)
*dun believe in dreams...but believe tat believe tat wad u dream r wad u can do.........

2005-10-13T04:05:00.000-07:00

exam finish liao wo...got back few o mui pp...not veri happy with mui result le...so sad sia...todae when to the musim(dunn how to spell)...veri boring lehz...then lata come back to skul after 2 hours lyk tat...reach skul go n take back the exam pp...pass come fail some...so sad...nvm...then after this...i go n eat wif gladys n xin hui la...eat at gekpo de KFC...veri fun...we go n mix water,chilli,ice,in the cheese frise le...veri fun...after tat when home...borring dae...but its simple n nice...if eeverydae is lyk tat...won tat be nice???

2005-10-03T02:21:00.000-07:00

we fight///we disagree wif 1another///we sae each other bad things at the back///but we are still best fren...and hope tat this will be forever....:)

2005-10-01T02:41:00.000-07:00

eoy exam coming le...i veri scared lle...the stupid history so long to study...veri sian le...y lyk tAt one...soo many things to do..

true frens are ones who tell u your bad points
nv sae bad things of u behind your back
can be trust
treat me equally
but till now...i still dun haf a true fren
mui choice the wrong road again n again...

**lostindreamsworld**

2005-09-29T04:42:00.000-07:00

i have been thinking for a veri long time.did i make a rite chioce coming to wwss...todae,finally,i had the answer...the answer is no...i am veri dissappointed in everything...especially in frenship...i ask myself...who would be there for me when i am in trouble,,,i tink,,,it seems tat no one would be there 4 mui...then i ask myself...who is the one who is by your side when u need your fren most...the answer is,no one...i dunno y,but it makes me tink,did i make the rite fren in the first place?i tink i chose wrong...realli wrong...i chose the wrong road in my secondary life...am i reallix tat stupid for u?sua gu to u?nerd to you???reallix???i haf nv hate my life more...but now,all i knoe is tat i haf to rewalk my life again...tats all i knoe...i had wasted my life on something tat doesnt lyk me///////.....////////

2005-09-27T02:29:00.000-07:00

sometimes,maybe i should face wad i see,feel and try and understand...especially when i found out something...i cannot sae wad it is...but of course,i m sad...i haf nv feel sader...no,nv in my life...lets tok bout other things...lets tok bout wad life is in my opinion...for me,i think life is a thing tat u will haf to face,in both happy or sad ways...u can chose the road u want to go for...maybe from the first places,i chose wrong road...blame myself...dunch balme others...its all my fault...but is ti natural for my own fren to hate me???even bestfren can become strangers...i think i m realli hopeless...nothing means to me now...i dunch care anything oready...as ppl dunch trust me...i haf nv betray my fren before...i haf nv backkstap anyone...but y someone backstap me???why???when i aactually i quite trust tat person...maybe tats my life...faith...maybe...

2005-09-23T22:49:00.000-07:00

so long nv blog liao...wow...lots thing happen...now then i knoe mui bad points...i will try to change la...something beri funny hapen yesterdae tat made me laugh till teeth drop...my priciple sae tat my chinese teacher veri gd...AS IF...everi time catch my ankle one...so bad... her sia/..//then somemore she give us the oral...make me more hate her...stupid moron sia..haha//vomit sia....she gd,,,then lorr...on wednesday,got stand and deliver///my class did a beri gd job le...haha///yo...veri happy...tats all la///

-_-ll

2005-09-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

today nothing much happen la...mornng...go sit down at the qurangle///(dunno how to spell)
then i sit infronth o mui fren...then got the wad stupid push up///cause tuesday need to do...do till every pain le...mui leg...the teacher siao le...ask us to do...the floor veri the rough u knoe...then if we rest rite,they will ask us to do le...crazy...they soclever,they ddoo la...i think they will worst than me...do 1 push up wanna die liao...haha~~~then after the execise,we go back to class...then our dm caught me fren le../..cause she tuck out shirt...haha...though she gonna wear flower pants...as they say if get caught must...luckily,nothing happpen...wooohaha...
thEn latEr got nothing liao...got the boring maths lesson...then literature...learn bout poem...quite fun....go further into a peom...haha...then at recess...get caught by ms lim...cause we say her full name...stupid sia she...call her full name got problem?stupid sia...second time get caught...then lata come back from recess...a idoit sc caugh mui sock...then my form teacher say y your sock lyk tat...HER PROBLEM ISIT>>hhaa...no la...then lata we discuss the S&D...the performance...veri wad...i the the crop maker...veri difficult le...do the crop...somemore mui act sucks one...sian sia...then lata got chinese...my ex d &t teacher come n teach awile le...his chinese qutie gd le...i did rather he be mui teacher than the ms lim...everitime caught ppl one...lyk she everi gd lyk tat...AS IF SIA...BHB ONE SHE...then after chinese got the history...boring sia...then science...then bellring liao...then we stay back...cause got the s&d rehearsel...qutie fun la...but i crop maker...dun get to act...nvm...we watch them a while then we go outside the classroom cause very the nosi///we go discuss wad to make...then the cherrie veri poor thin...teacher ask her to act...haha...then she very cute le...!!!then lata she come and join us after doing her part la///then aftre 3 hours or so...end laiox...tats all!!!

wad is tis world

2005-09-06T04:04:00.000-07:00

wad ish this world???i dunno u knoe...ish it supose to be a happy place,or a sad place...for me...its a sad place...as in tis world...there ish fighting,and ppl will be hurt...and let me tell u my story...in my primary skul,,,i am lyk a pet..ppl play me around...in mui pri 3 days...ppl treat me lyk a dog...must listen to ppl...in pri 4...more worst... no one lyk me...when i go to better class than mui fren...they say things lyk...of course la...this stupid garl...they even say i copy in exam...ppl l00k down on me...in pri 5...i found my best fren for the first time...quite nice la...my fren...but in pri6,we fightt...alot of problem...in the end...we nolonger fren...but then i found another fren,,,but then..i wasnt happy...as y must i haf my life in tish way tat ppl dun lyk...i wasn pretty...in fact...i am veri ugly...i haf no confidance in myself...dunno wad to tok to ppl...i veri sad...tish is a unfair world...a veri unfair world...i dun haf a choice to love...oppl will say i bhb...as i ugly...how to love???y am i being born to tish place in the first place?i nolonger haf a smile...it is lost...and it won come back........

nothing

2005-09-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

sometimes i felt aloonnee...lyk i shouldn be at someplace at all...lyk todae...i go choir...i extra...no ppl to line up wif...then ppl duuno wad to tok to me...i dunno le...i dunno y lyk tat...is tat suppose to be my secondary skul life...i nv enjoy life before...cant i even enjoy my secondary skull life at all?i dun think its a very uneasy request.then yesterday...my fren...sort of ignored me completely...i wish it could stop u knoe...every time lyk tat one...if not this ignore me,then tat one...why lyk tat?i haf feeelings...i do u knoe...i felt sad...as u are my bestfren...although last time we are better la...but still...u are my bestfren...yet u ignore me...wads wrong...when your bestfren is there...normally u will come n say hello...then tok one...but when i am there..u dun come...maybe i not yyourbestfren...last time ppl ignore me...u say lyk dun be sad...blah blah...then later i mn e ppl ok liao...then i did try to go wif u...i tok to u...i wan u to be wif us in all activities...but now...u allso lyk them wad...say ppl say yourself la...u might get angry after seeing this...i hack care...all i wan is an answer...everytime say to me"try to tok la...not we dun wan to tok to u./......"but then everything u say is not true...dun give me false hoppee...as i dun feel better lyk tat u knoe...angry wif me tell me in face...dun show be face...I DUN TAKE TAT...i realli dun wan to be lyk ttatt wif u le...lyk we enemies...i wan to be 4frens4ever wif u...plz tag 4 mii as an reply...plz...(i mean no offence horr...this message))

feelin a love

2005-09-03T00:36:00.000-07:00

when i am scared
i hope to be wif you
to see your caring eyes
to calm me down
to hear your voice
to make me laugh
and everi time i am crying
i hpe u to sae this 3 words to me
i love u....

am i a good daughter?

2005-09-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

i haf been thinking le...for a every long time...how many times i broke my mother's heart...i think...almost everydae i broke her heart...everyday....why>i always say tat she dun lyk me...dun understand me...but did i try to understand her?i my not a gd daughter,.,,i every day angry...of course she will lyk me less//understandin veri importan...she protect me to the world...i will protect her too...i promise myself tat i won do things dat will hurt her..........she is my close one...i cannot lose her...i need her...family is realli importan....im sorrix to be angry everi time...sorrix for dat....stupid/...im so stupid...everi thing also angry...i realli mmust learn...somethin happen...doctor say my heart pumping got wad echo...must go checkup...last time nv lyk tat one...i veri scare if somethin is wrong wif my heart...i wan to be wif my family forever...i knoe its impossible...but i reali wish...i also wan to be wif my frens forever,,,but wad if there is something wrong wif my heart?i think and i think till i veri scare.....i ask my most best fren 4 help...then i finally relax liao...nvm larhz...lifes lyk tat...sometimes there is a disater...over come it and life willl be better...i sboulld be happi tat i get yto go 4 a checkup...so i can be cure...no point scare...thanks fren!!!4 calmin me down.,.,,,.......

knoe how to care

2005-09-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

points u need to remember
>when someone is wif u,they are not here wif u 4ever...take this changes to care more....
>be the one who is there to comfort ppl whenthey are in trouble
>do the rite things
>always understand ppl,do not wait for them to understan u
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TO BE CONTINUE

love

2005-09-02T06:03:00.000-07:00

when i dream
i dream of u
when i cry
cause im missing you
but where are you when i need you to say a word of comfort
where are you
am i in wrong to love you
and do u love me lyk i love you
is your love for me strong enough
i think not
as i my sure
it will be hard for u to say this three words to me
i love u

feelings,..,.,....

2005-09-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

todae...same la...but d.d.d(destiny dudes...)broke record...we nv fight...on friday...we always fight over something one...happy sia...todae nothn much happen...just tat on pe we play captain ball...then i feel useless...as i dunno how to catch the ball when i am suppose to catch it...last i i quite gd in netball and captains balll(i knoe i bhb)but now,everything changes.....i use to be the head of everyone in pri skul...but now tat i m in sec skul,im not...however i m the onces i think ppl dun reali lyk...iii realli duuno how to change myself le....i cannot find back my past character le...it is lost...but why?i knoe my past character is deep down inside me...being buried...i need to take it out gain...i must......some one tell me how...just how...maybe i lost my condiencess...ppl duuno hoe i feel...i have never feel worst...its lyk losting your entire life tat you have build up....life sucks for me...nothing is perfect 4 me...my onli real smile is onli when i was at my pri skul...till now,i haave nv smile real before...ppl l;ook down on me...attide of theirs teell me...even in my ccas ppl also lyk tat...wads wrong?why can`t ppl tell me face to face...is it tat i ugly,quiet,boring and i behave in a strange manner?i also dunno why i lyk tat... i last time realli not lyk tat one...if i wan to tok...i can be vri talkative...but maybe sometimes ppl dun understand///////plz understand...i reallix hope ppl saw this...and PLZ change your attidute towards me...(i not toking bout d.d.d members)plz...we are all the same....humans ok...we have feelings...when u lyk tat to me...i feel it...i think of u\y...u ruined the rest of my days...n i will loss condience...if tats the way u wan me to feel,fine...but remember...no one is perfect.......

teachers day

2005-09-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

veri sian le...yesterday teachers daay...our skul gave us a veri so caall boring celebration...sian!!!got the wad teachers bady photo...wow...so cute...but of,i cuter...no larhz...ha///then after tat hoorr,got the netball...teachers verus students from the netball team...got one teacher sucks sia...she dunno how to catch ball...still wanna catch...dunno how to aim net also,still wanna throw...she tell my form teacher to go here and there so she can throw the ball to her...she sucks sia...then somemore when we are watching,we are sitting under the hot sun...the sec 3 one get to sit at the shade le...sia sia...i am dark enough,,somemore i dun wan to be come roasted human,,,veri the fu*k u le...then got the wad chaiman netball game...the sec thrree won of course...the sec ones lorr...onli a few gd onli...my class chairman played okok onli...he thrown in a few goals///guess wad is the price for winning the chairman netball game...six canes of coke...-_-ll(i think so onli...)give me i also dun wan...then after the tournament we get mismiss...i go give teacher present...find the teacher find till go crazy...all teacher dunno go where...then lata i find someof the teacherrs...now i haf 1 present left...cannot find the teacher...nvm,i keep the present...haha...after this...my fren(gladys)and i go jp find my old fren...poor gladys,dunno any of mui frens,so she veri quiet...my old frens(siok teng,si ying,cai yun) and gladys and i go to kfc eat...the si ying dunno crazy or wad,every time see me eat,she laugh...she say my bunger veri big...then say i every time bite the bubger,must clean mui mouth...crazy one...then lata,my fren,zin tect call me..she tok so loud ...she say she will meet us at skul...n say she there oready...wefaster eat lo...then we take 187 there...gladys say she meet her fren at the mama shop near my skul...so when we reach there,she go off...so cai yun si ying and siok then and i go to shuqun...we go inside meet alot ppl...we go our classroom first..then alot la...then we meet zintectt and shahidah(and gang)we tok tok veri happi...then cai yun n i go third floor give present...found teacher but she lyk dun remember me...then we go libray...give present...then we go out walk walk...we meet zin gain...so we go out to mama shop wif her...buy lots of rubbish to eat...then we go back skul...at 2 something...cai yun n i go out gain...then when we come back...we cannot go in liao...visting time over...i call gladys and she say go home together...tats all la/...